Tuesday, August 31, 2010
Ryan wants me to wait until he is laid off to have surgery in late Dec or early Jan despite my pain, etc. He wants to be here to look after me and also doesn't want to be at work thinking about me. So out of respect, it looks like I may have to wait for surgery. It would be nice to have it over and done, but I don't want him to be stressed. What's a couple more months if it makes my husband more comfortable? When I see the doc next month for the biopsy, then I will let her know then. If she still highly recommends it to be done sooner, then I may.
It can be hard to be respectful to your husband at times, can't it? We can be moody for whatever reason and have a harsh tone to our voice when we speak to them. This should not be. If we are disrespectful, he will almost certainly react to our attitude rather than the real issue. We are disrespectful when we make fun of our husbands, cut them down, are sarcastic, impatient, short, irritated, go against their wishes, etc. Our tone of voice should be gentle and calm. We can show respect even if we disagree with them...
God tells us in the bible ".....and the wife must respect her husband." Ephesians 5:33
It's going to be hot today and I need to mow. I also have to run to the store for some things I forgot to get. I hope to make some oatmeal packets this afternoon and also get the laundry folded and put away. I hope to be alert for small group tonight. God, please clear my mind, let it be sharp and not swiss cheese-like :), allow me to be organized and fresh. Help me be more respectful to my husband with my words and tone and actions. It is my desire to please You by pleasing him. I want to be a good helpmeet to my wonderful, hardworking, strong husband. Give him wisdom also, Lord, with my surgery. Speak to him about what You want to happen with it. Give Him the know as the head of our house. I trust him because he trusts You. I will follow him.
Monday, August 30, 2010
From Elisabeth Elliot
Someone asked last week, "When Jim died was your walk with the Lord close enough that His love and comfort and presence were sufficient at all times--or did grief and sorrow at times overtake and overwhelm you?"
My answer is yes to both questions. It is not an either-or matter. The psalmist, overwhelmed, prayed, "Lead me to the Rock that is higher than I" (Ps 61:2 AV).
Paul, plagued by a thorn, besought the Lord three times to remove it.
Jesus, "horror-stricken and desperately depressed," prayed "O My Father--if it be possible..." (Mk 14:34,36).
Of none of these--the psalmist, the apostle, the Lord--could it be said that his walk with God was not close enough. There was human suffering and divine sufficiency. This is the story of our life. The promise is "My grace is sufficient" (2 Cor 12:9 AV), not "My grace will abolish your thorns."
Came across this today and found it interesting. We all know there will be times of suffering. Somewhere in the back of our minds we think it's wrong to cry out to the Lord in desperation. We think we need to just "suck it up" and be strong and get over it. That God will see us as weak and not strong if we don't. But, God wants us weak and crying out to Him. He wants to offer divine sufficiency to our human suffering. Let Him...
Saturday, August 28, 2010
Friday, August 27, 2010
This would be one of our family mottoes. Our family suffers when we are unable to slow down. The past couple of weeks have been a whirlwind. So many things going on, some drama, running to and fro, etc. It seems like I haven't even talked to my husband in that amount of time. We finished up one project last night that was taking up most of our time, so things should start to slow down....hopefully.
I know this life is not about me. It's about Him. It can be so difficult to focus on Him when there are so many distractions swirling around. Sometimes I wish I had a reset button. :) I feel like I haven't been able to digest scripture properly. It seems I read so many different verses that I can't keep them straight, remember them, or even try to apply them. It's like being so hungry and waiting so long to eat that when you do finally eat you eat so fast and don't even really taste it. I want to savor the Word and take small bites and be able to digest it slowly. I know the Word is good, but I don't want to gorge myself on it...does that make sense? So I am going to start taking one scripture a day to really ponder and apply instead of the so many I have been doing. I hope that doesn't make me unwise.
On a side note, I wish some things were like they used to be. I know God has a purpose for everything and if some things cannot be, then He must have a good reason. But, I continue to pray that He will give me my heart's desire. :) But, if He doesn't, I will not be bitter and I do thank Him for what He has provided. At least there is still a presence there...that makes me smile. :)
2.- Never nag, or try to manipulate your husband into doing things your way.
3.- Trust God, and trust your husband. Pray for him daily.
4.- God first, husband second, children third, house fourth.
5.- Submit to your husband’s authority, and allow errors in his judgment.
6.- Allow him to provide for the family, and appreciate the money he brings in, and the provisions he provides for his family, no matter how little or how much.
7.- Spend your husband’s hard earned money wisely, and be frugal. Never sneak expenses behind his back.
8.- Do not wound his masculine pride. Instead, compliment him on his manly accomplishments, and show your appreciation of him every day.
9.- A modest, feminine appearance is important. As is feminine manner, nature, softness, gentleness, and a spirit of sweet submission and dependency on the husband.
10.- You have a God-given career that can bless you abundantly. That career is in the home.
11.- Cook delicious healthy meals, keep the home clean, and take wonderful, loving care of your children.
12.- Your duty is to be a “homemaker,” hence, your job is to make your house a home.
13.- Above all, the wife at home is to exude an attitude of happiness and joy. Rejoice in the Lord for the wonderful family He has provided for you, and never take your family for granted.
Thursday, August 26, 2010
She brings him good, not harm all the days of her life. Proverbs 31:12
A lovely portrait of a true and noble wife:
"She delights him with her company and conversation,
sustains him with her strength,
stimulates and sharpens him with her wisdom and intelligence,
emboldens him with her praise,
bolsters him with her cheerfulness,
comforts him with her love,
and heartens him with her courage."
Wednesday, August 25, 2010
I pray everyone enjoys their day. I know I have some repenting to do. I was not very good at keeping my impatience at bay. I got to where I was pacing around waiting for them to call me. I hope I do better when the next opportunity rolls around....I am so not good at waiting.
~ Elisabeth Elliot
Tuesday, August 24, 2010
What about our families? Do we make choices for them based on pressures from other family members or well-intentioned friends, while suppressing that little voice in our heart, and knowing that is not what we would have really chosen to do?
"Break down their altars, smash their sacred stones and burn their Asherah poles in the fire; cut down the idols of their gods and wipe out their names from those places." Deuteronomy 12:3
I will share truth here--even if it is hard for you to listen.
Monday, August 23, 2010
Making some brownies later for the guys that are coming over to work on my brother's truck. I can't wait til it's fixed and out of our driveway. ;)
Woke up this morning to the neighbor's rooster. I love it...really I do. The crickets are still chirping and the cool breeze coming through the windows is just wonderful. The sun is shining, the grass is still green, and the birds are fluttering by my front window. :) Good stuff.
Well, I'd better get movin'. The day waits for no one. :) I pray everyone enjoys this day the Lord has made. :)
I am always so inspired by gentle mothers that I see around me. Their gentle voices, their unnerving patience---all traits I so desire to greatly cultivate in myself. If we are to "love our children" the world around us should be able to validate Gods Word as true by being around us and seeing that our interaction with our children affirms that.
"Let your gentleness be evident to all." Phillipians 4:5
If we are to raise sons and daughters that will also love their children, it is imperative that it is modeled it for them. How many times have your caught yourself raising your voice to your children and have found them doing or saying exactly what you were doing later that day? They mimic all that we do, so from the minute we awake we must practice what I call 'purposeful parenting'. Everything we do they are absorbing and taking in like sponges. Our responsibility is to teach them to have self command and learn to heed the Word of God.
~A Wise Woman Builds Her Home
I came across this today and thought I would share it. Being gentle is one of my desires...
Sunday, August 22, 2010
My heart's desire is for him to become a strong, loving, hardworking man. What am I doing wrong? :( Lord, guide my actions, words, and motives. Guide me in how to shape my son to be more like you...
Saturday, August 21, 2010
I encourage you to enjoy every moment you have. Make the best of every situation and grow and grow some more in Christ. Tell the ones you love you love them, hug them, give them you, just savor every moment. I know I do. :) I am thankful for all God has provided. He has been very gracious to me, providing things/people exactly when I need it/them. I have learned so much from those people he has blessed me with. I just pray I can be a blessing to them in return.
Gosh, I'm rambling now...sometimes my heart just seeps out. ;)
Enjoy your weekend!
Father, hear us, we are praying,
Hear the words our hearts are saying,
We are praying for our children.
Keep them from the powers of evil,
From the secret, hidden peril,
From the whirlpool that would suck them,
From the treacherous quicksand, pluck them.
From the worldling’s hollow gladness,
From the sting of faithless sadness,
Holy Father, save our children.
Through life’s troubled waters steer them,
Through life’s bitter battle cheer them,
Father, Father, be Thou near them.
Read the language of our longing,
Read the wordless pleadings thronging,
Holy Father, for our children.
And wherever they may bide,
Lead them Home at eventide.
Do not debunk feelings as such. Remember they
are given to us as part of our humanity. Do not try
to fortify yourself against emotions. Recognize
them; name them, if that helps; and then lay them
open before the Lord for His training of your responses.
The discipline of emotions is the training of responses.
No argument for discipline will furnish the
power to discipline. He who summons is He who
empowers. He is Master. As we give ourselves to
His rule, He gives us grace to rule.
Friday, August 20, 2010
And feelings are deceiving;
My warrant is the Word of God,
Naught else is worth believing.
Though all my heart should feel condemned
For want of some sweet token,
There is One greater than my heart
Whose word cannot be broken.
I’ll trust in God’s unchanging word
Till soul and body sever;
For, though all things shall pass away,
His word shall stand forever
I put my trust in Him. He is my strength and my joy. I am thankful for people He puts in my life to show me Himself. He does that through others. We all have a job to do. Each one is different from another, but every job is important and should glorify God. God wants us to be obedient to Him and the portion He has poured out for us. I will serve Him all of my days and allow Him to show Himself to others through me. He wants to be known intimately.
My husband and brother will be working on my brother's truck this afternoon. I'll be cleaning the chicken coop, washing windows, and tidying up the house. Truth be known, I'll probably be outside poking around the truck. :) I like to help with working on vehicles. It's interesting and fun to me. I've got some baking to do tomorrow. Making a cherry crisp and some oatmeal creme pies. Yummy, yummy. :)
I pray everyone enjoys their Friday. I'm sure gonna try. I get to start the day off with sitting in a barn while Hunter rides a horse. Oh yes, that's pleasant for me. I'll sit there savoring the breeze and ponder on the portion God has given me. I pray for my loved ones during that time and I just thank God for such wonderful things such as barns, swallows, sunshine, caring people, family, etc (I could go on and on) I will also pray for strength (physically and emotionally) to get through the next few months. He is always there, always listening, always good...
Thursday, August 19, 2010
I know this may sound crazy, but have you thought about what you would say to people if you were on your deathbed? I have. I often wonder why I don't say them now. In some instances, I am unable, but the instances I am, I should. Something I've been pondering...
Hunter has horseback riding lessons tomorrow. He hasn't been able to ride much due to the extreme heat and humidity here so he's looking forward to that. Me, too. I'm hoping to get to groom a horse and relax in the barn. I just love the barn. :) I love the swallows that flutter by, too. Ok, so you know I love it all! lol
I appreciate all the prayers being said on my behalf. Know that, I too, pray for some of you. It's good to know I am cared for and I hope you all know I care for you, too. So glad we serve a God who hears all of us...
Father, I know that all my life
Is portioned out for me,
And the changes that are sure to come
I do not fear to see;
Intent on pleasing Thee.
I would not have the restless will
That hurries to and fro,
Seeking for some great thing to do
Or secret thing to know;
I would be treated as a child
And guided where I go.
In whatsoever estate,
I have a fellowship with hearts
To keep and cultivate.
Wednesday, August 18, 2010
Silence, as someone has said, is the mother of prayer and the nurse of holy thoughts. Silence cuts down on our sins, doesn't it? We can't be sinning in so many different ways if we are being quiet before God. Silence nourishes patience, charity, discretion. ~Elisabeth Elliot
Tuesday, August 17, 2010
From our Lord's words we learn that there is a limit to sickness. Here is an "unto" within which its ultimate end is restrained, and beyond which it cannot go. Lazarus might pass through death, but death was not to be the ultimatum of his sickness. In all sickness, the Lord saith to the waves of pain, "Hitherto shall ye go, but no further." His fixed purpose is not the destruction, but the instruction of His people. Wisdom hangs up the thermometer at the furnace mouth, and regulates the heat.
1. The limit is encouragingly comprehensive. The God of providence has limited the time, manner, intensity, repetition, and effects of all our sicknesses; each throb is decreed, each sleepless hour predestined, each relapse ordained, each depression of spirit foreknown, and each sanctifying result eternally purposed. Nothing great or small escapes the ordaining hand of Him who numbers the hairs of our head.
2. This limit is wisely adjusted to our strength, to the end designed, and to the grace apportioned. Affliction comes not at haphazard--the weight of every stroke of the rod is accurately measured. He who made no mistakes in balancing the clouds and meting out the heavens, commits no errors in measuring out the ingredients which compose the medicine of souls. We cannot suffer too much nor be relieved too late.
3. The limit is tenderly appointed. The knife of the heavenly Surgeon never cuts deeper than is absolutely necessary. "He doth not afflict willingly, nor grieve the children of men." A mother's heart cries, "Spare my child"; but no mother is more compassionate than our gracious God. When we consider how hard-mouthed we are, it is a wonder that we are not driven with a sharper bit. The thought is full of consolation, that He who has fixed the bounds of our habitation, has also fixed the bounds of our tribulation.
~I came across this today, found it interesting....
Monday, August 16, 2010
Roasting a chicken for supper and having rice and green beans with it. I'm starving. :) Hungrier than a hostage I tell ya. I woke up from my nap that way. Ate 4 pieces of toast and a bowl of cereal. Still hungry...
I am thankful for love that continues and doesn't fade even over periods of time apart from others. That is a special kind of love. One that you can carry into eternity with you. It's good to be able to give that kind of love, too. It has God written all over it, for He is love.
I pray everyone enjoys their evening. Ours have finally started to cool down and I will very much enjoy sitting on the porch again listening to the sounds of nature outside and smelling the corn in the fields. So many simple pleasures that bring me joy...
On a good note, I had a wonderful supper with some great people last night. I laughed a lot and it was nice. Something I missed...
Well, I'm gonna try and feel better....hope you all have a great day. :)
Saturday, August 14, 2010
Building up our home is done in many ways. We can cook, clean and organize until our heads our spinning but literally 'tear down' our homes with the way we communicate making all our other 'building efforts' in vain. We communicate three major ways:
2. Body language (example: rolling eyes, folded arms)
3. Tone of voice
We can inspire our families to change the world or tear them down in a heartbeat if we are not carefully choosing our words--just as the verse says:
"The tongue holds the power of life and death."-Proverbs 18:21
Are we bringing life to our homes or death? Are we slashing our husband to pieces with our words and screaming at our little children (who are probably unsaved and need the Lord?)
A careless word may kindle strife.
A cruel word may wreck a life.
A brutal world may smite and kill.
A gracious word may smooth the way.
A joyous word may light the day.
A timely word may lessen stress.
A loving word may heal and bless.
We are always building up our homes or tearing it down. Let's purposefully use our words to BUILD. A word that is timely can plant a seed that can be used powerfully to change the world one day---to change lives, to help save the lost.
BUILD up and respect husbands who will stand in the forefront of battle for the kingdom of God.
BUILD up children who will one day be an army for Him, who will lead the future for Him.
BUILD up extended family who need to see his love, grace and mercy.
BUILD up a neighborhood that will see Christs light in the dark, wicked world and find hope.
BUILD up a world where the prisoners are set free, the shackles are loosened, and there is new life through Jesus Christ and his His healing, powerful Word.
Friday, August 13, 2010
Certainly something to think about...
Thursday, August 12, 2010
Here's the recipe:
9 c watermelon
15 oz bottled lemon juice
3/4 c to 1 c sugar
Blend watermelon and lemon juice in blender. Pour into gallon pitcher. Add water to fill pitcher. Add sugar and stir. That's it! :)
We went to Whole Foods in Missouri and got some different foods we haven't tried before. We got some different cheeses that are delicious. Last night we tried our Blueberry Maple Country breakfast sausage...wonderful good it was! After supper we decided to try the young coconut we bought.
All I can say is YUCK! It was weird. Give me a fully developed coconut anytime. This was like pudding consistency and had no coconut flavor. Ewww...But, at least we tried it.
I'm dedicating this day to the Lord and I'm going to really try and do that for all my days. It is a giant effort for me to not be focused on self immediately upon waking. The very moment I open my eyes, I am reminded of having pain or weakness, which automatically gets me thinking about myself (my body). I am working on pushing those thoughts away and ignoring the pain and weakness and focusing on Him. It's a constant battle...
Glorifying husband tip....Be organized with cleaning, grocery shopping, laundry, and cooking. As you fulfill your God-given responsibilities, your husband will be free to do his work.
Wednesday, August 11, 2010
Being treated fairly
Having a hurt free life
As long as things are going well in the areas you have your heart set on, you will feel alright. When they do not turn out as you may desire, frustration and perhaps anxiety begin to build even to the point of depression. You become willing to do anything to have your "idol." As idolatrous sin abounds, painful emotions increase, and the pressure builds. Instead of compounding sin, God wants the undivided worship and devotion of your heart. Your thoughts, motives, and choices should be set on glorifying Him, not on your idolatrous heart's desire.
Example...A wife wants her husband to cherish her, talk to her, and make her feel special. All good things. The problem comes when the wife has her heart set on romance and special feelings instead of setting her heart on serving and worshiping the Lord. As a result, when those special feelings are not there, she becomes bitter, frustrated, and disappointed. That becomes more important to her than her relationship with Christ. It becomes an idol.
Some correct desires are...that I may be pleasing to Him regardless of circumstances.
That I may cultivate an attitude of joy and gratitude in what God is doing in my life no matter what my husband does or doesn't do
That I may have joy in God deciding how my life and circumstances can glorify Him the most
What's your heart set on?
Tip for glorifying your husband...Ask him what his goals are and how you can help him accomplish them.
~Taken in part from "The Excellent Wife" by Martha Peace
Tuesday, August 10, 2010
It is really hot here again this week and I am concerned for my husband and his coworkers. As roofers they are more susceptible to heat exhaustion. I know they will take lots of breaks. Just praying they all have wisdom on these hot days. I'm trying to get back into the groove of daily life. I need to go to the grocery store today and get some laundry done. Sometime this week I'd like to get my schedule set for homeschooling. I went over the curriculum the other day and think Hunter will enjoy learning different things this year.
I'll be ending each post with a way a wife can glorify her husband. Here's one for today....Talk about him in a positive light. Do not slander him at all, even if what you are saying is true.
Sunday, August 8, 2010
Let's see....it started out a bit rough and ended a bit rough. (I'll get to the end in a bit) But, the middle was good. :) It started with us not getting the hotel room we booked. Tiny beds. They couldn't fix it because the entire hotel was booked. So we made due. The first night we went to the pool to "relax". Huh...right...LOL. Ten thousand kids...everywhere. I tried to get in the hot tub and did for a bit until I couldn't take being "bombed" by the kids that were jumping in. The hot tub no less! We gave up and went to relax in our little room.
The next day they upgraded us to a suite for no extra charge. It was much nicer. :) We were getting ready to head to Grant's Farm and my husband was trying to iron a shirt and the iron spewed rusty water all over it and it stained. He was frustrated, but the hotel had it dry cleaned. After all that, we prayed about it and went on to Grant's Farm.
Hunter was a little excited. :)
The Captain and I
Looking at the tortoises.
Grossed out? LOL
Saturday night we went to eat at Sage in St. Louis. It was really yummy!
My supper...tapalpia with artichokes, spinach, and heirloom tomatoes with wild rice mix. Mmmmmm!
This was the captain's meal...smoke tenderloin. Oh yum!
This was dessert! I married the stout mousse on the left...yep sure did. ;) The middle and right was the captain's. Blueberry cheesecake and key lime pie. :)
Went to Meramec Caverns, also. It's an interesting place. I didn't like that it was dark and no air was moving. I need light. :) I more of a mountain kinda girl. :)
Now to the end of our vacation. After the caves, we decided to come back and relax in the hotel for a while. No one is sleeping good while not in their own bed...Decided to go swimming, but found out the pool was closed due to all the kids over the weekend making it really dirty. :( They said we could go to the hotel next door to swim, so we did. The captain and Hunter swam around for a while while I lounged and read a book "The Excellent Wife". A family with several little kids came over to swim, too. One of the little dears pooed in the pool...ugh. Needless to say, the captain and Hunter scrambled out of there and they closed the pool...
We are going to go to Bass Pro Shop and Whole Foods on the way home. I love Bass Pro Shop and never been to Whole Foods. Looking forward to some good whole foods. :)
I have enjoyed spending time with my family. It's been nice and lots of memories have been made. :) I've been able to recover more from my myasthenic crisis and have fun at the same time. Good times...
Friday, August 6, 2010
This is the book we are giving him for his birthday. It is a wonderful book to give a teenage boy. It was written by a Mennonite man and talks about good character, integrity, being a godly man, all sorts of good stuff. If you have teenage boys, I suggest you check it out. You can find it on Amazon or Rod and Staff Publishers.
I pray everyone enjoys their weekend. Praying God gives me strength to enjoy my family this weekend. I am going to rest each night this weekend after our treks. I want to continue to feel good and not exacerbate my illness. I love when I feel good and can be present in my family's life to participate and not just watch and wish I could do things. :) Thankful for all He provides and even thankful for things He sees fit to withhold...
Thursday, August 5, 2010
Our cat had kittens yesterday. :) Her last litter did not survive. This litter seems to be doing ok so far. I was there when the first one appeared. :)
Did you know forgiveness doesn't really have to do with the other person as much as it has to do with your relationship with God? When someone asks you to forgive them, you must. God commands it. Matthew 6:14-15 True forgiveness releases you from the bondage of anger and fear. Likewise, when you ask for forgiveness it releases you from the bondage of anger and fear, among other things. It works both ways. God really understands that we as Christians need to forgive and be forgiven of each other. It was awesome to see God work yesterday when the captain and I were asked to forgive someone. We did. Although, the relationship is not as deep as we would like, we are still thankful that there is again a relationship to enjoy. May God be glorified in that and may I be content in that.
Trying to get ready to go on vacation this weekend. I have cookies to bake today to take with us for snack and laundry to do so we can pack. I have no one to collect eggs while we are gone and I'm hoping that they don't pile up too bad. I don't have anyone to close the coop for the night either, so I'm hoping predators don't get them. But, we really haven't had any predator problems here with them so I think they will be ok. God can watch over them, too. :)
This vacation is really for Hunter to celebrate his birthday. He'll be 13 on the 3rd of September. We are doing things he likes to let him know just how special he is and how much we love him. I just can't believe I'm going to have a teenager! I'm praising God that I have a relationship with a wise man again that I can come to with questions and advice in raising a teenage boy in the Lord. I'm so thankful...
I hope everyone enjoys their day. Hopefully it's cooler in your neck of the woods than it has been here. So hot...
Wednesday, August 4, 2010
I continue to feel stronger now taking the natural immunomodulator. So glad it is working. Trying not to let the stress of my mom get to me. She is doing things that are hurtful and it saddens me that I have a mom who doesn't really care for her daughter. I'm just glad I have mom's in the church that I can learn from so I can be a good, loving mom to my son. I love him so much.
Doing some baking today and then getting some things done that I haven't been able to due to my myasthenic crisis. I have the garden to put to bed for the year, a picnic table to stain, and a deck to power wash and seal. It would be nice if were a bit cooler. ;)
"For everything that was written in the past was written to teach us, so that through endurance and the encouragement of the scriptures we might have hope." Romans 15:4
Tuesday, August 3, 2010
I am going to make some pound cake today, probably lemon. :) I also need to pickle some beets and do some housework. I think I'll recruit Hunter to help with vacuuming. We are working on refreshing his math skills before we officially start homeschooling again in Sept. I'm looking forward to schooling him again this year. This will be 8 yrs of homeschooling this year. :)
We made our hotel reservations for this weekend in Missouri. We are taking a mini family vacation. We will be going to Meramec Caverns, Grant's Farm, and the zoo. It should be fun. I know Hunter is looking forward to it. Me, too. ;)
It's supposed to be hot again today. I will be praying that Rye doesn't get overheated today on the roofs. He amazes me with his strength sometimes. I know I lean on that strength quite often. He even said that if I die before him, he would hold me close in his arms until I breathed my last. I am blessed...
Monday, August 2, 2010
I started a natural immunomodulator a couple days ago and it seems to be slowly working. This may be something I need to take the rest of my days since I am strongly cautioned against the normal hospital treatments that modulate my immune system. It surely makes you aware of your own mortality. The way I felt the last week reminded me that life is short. No one really knows when our days here will end. All we can do is spend time with the ones we love as much as we can, hold on to the memories of those we can't, advance the Kingdom, serve our Lord, and enjoy the beauty around us. Simple. :)
I'm hoping for a quick recovery from this myasthenic crisis and to get back to doing what I love. Caring for my family...
"I am still confident of this: I will see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living. Wait for the Lord; be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord." Psalm 27:13-14