I have been working on having a meek and quiet spirit. I feel like I am failing some. I feel like I can't get it right. I try. I do. But, when it comes down to an opportunity to practice it, I fail more times than I succeed. I will say that I am aware of such and I am thankful for that because now I can try harder when the next opportunity comes.
I just feel like I have anger or sadness brewing inside me. I think it's probably from a lot of stress that has occurred already this year. I was hurt by my mom when she said bye to our relationship and that it was my loss, finances are a bit tight right now, feeling out of sorts with how well I'm doing at being a good wife, etc. I feel like satan has been whispering so much evil in my ear and it's driving me crazy!
I know, I know. I need to give all that stress over to Him. I do, but then I pick it up again. ;) The blessing of this blog is that I can write it out and that helps me give it over and not pick it back up. I can get it out of my system so to speak. I have prayed about this and I may have fallen, but I will get back up. I know God takes our hand and helps us back up. I know not every day is sunshine and rainbows. I know we all have times like this where it seems to be a bit more cloudy. But, shucks, I was enjoying the sunshine very much.
I desire to be a woman of purity, humility, meekness, gentleness, and joy. Trying desperately to not let satan steal those things from me. Praying for peace in the valley...