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Tuesday, February 28, 2012

The center of my life

If you scroll down to the "labels" section of this blog, it will become clear to you Who the center of my life is.  It's the label with the most posts...

I serve such a faithful God. He is always there for me whether I "feel" it or not.  He reveals Himself to me at what seem to be insignificant times like when I'm doing the dishes or cleaning the toilet. He also reveals Himself to me in the stillness of the day. When things are quiet and all I hear is the crackling of the woodstove, I hear Him speak to me in my spirit.  He also reveals Himself to me through His word. (This is the way I hear Him most)

Being in the word is so important.  Just opening up the bible and reading a scripture that jumps off the page right into your heart is so moving to me. I love it. 

On a rough day, I came across this..."O Lord, hear my prayer, listen to my cry for mercy, in your faithfulness and righteousness come to my relief." Psalm 143:1

Or when I struggle with being gentle..."Reckless words pierce like a sword, but the tongue of the wise brings healing." Proverbs 12:18

And how about if you struggle with being a quarrelsome wife..there seems to be quite a few scriptures on that...Provers 17:1, Proverbs 21:9, Proverbs 21:19, Proverbs 25:24, Proverbs 27:15,...I think we ought not be quarrelsome. ;)

And when you feel like you can't fight the battle anymore..."The Lord will fight for you; you need only to be still." Exodus 14:14

My life has had it's fair share of trials. But, I know they all have refined me. I know those trials are not yet over, and I still have much refining to go. I am thankful God cares enough to see me though the trials and can't wait until he can see His whole reflection when He looks at me...

 I hope to update you all with results of my full body bone scan I am having today.  I get to be radioactive for a while! That'll let my light shine! ;) As for now, I am working through side effects of my new medicine. Hanging in there...

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Monday, February 27, 2012

Chocolate chip lava cookies

I found this recipe on Pinterest and had to share! I will be making mine with grain free chocolate chip cookies. (you can find that recipe here on my blog). These look SO delicious!

Chocolate Chip Lava Cookies 

I am so in love with these darn chocolate lava cookies! What is it about a warm, gooey chocolate chip cookie stuffed with decadent, rich, melted chocolate that makes it so irresistible?? Especially when topped with vanilla ice cream. These are one of Kev’s favorite homemade treats, and he usually asks me to make them at least once a week. They are so simple to whip up, and such a treat! Let’s make some right now :)
Chocolate Chip Lava Cookies 

All you really need for these fabulous cookies is your favorite cookie dough and a bag of chocolate chips. My favorite cookie dough just happens to be Picky Palate’s, and it works perfectly for this recipe, but you could just as easily use a store-bought mix or even refrigerated cookie dough. Slice and bake cookie dough would be so simple here! But my heart will always belong to Picky Palate’s cookie dough. It absolutely can’t be beat in flavor and chewiness!

Chocolate Chip Lava Cookies 

Since these cookies are absolutely gushing with delicious rich chocolate, my favorite chocolate chips for this recipe are the Hersey’s Milk Chocolate chips. I did a side by side taste test with these and a few of the other milk chocolate chips available in my grocery store, and these by far had the most prominent rich chocolate flavor. Next time you’re at the store, grab a couple of bags and have a chocolate chip taste testing of your own! They’re all good, so you definitely won’t have a problem using them up — you really can’t go wrong with milk chocolate :)

Chocolate Chip Lava Cookies 

Now let’s make some chocolate lava cookies! Using half the cookie dough, grab a 1.5-2 tbsp scoop of dough (I used a Pampered Chef Medium Scoop for this) and flatten it out a bit.

Chocolate Chip Lava Cookies 

Place the flattened cookie dough in the bottom of a well-greased standard sized muffin tin. Now depending on how much cookie dough you eat (in my case, I think it’s an abnormally high amount), you’ll have enough for 10 or 11 cookies. I start with 10, and add the 11th later if I have enough dough leftover.

Chocolate Chip Lava Cookies 

Now for our gooey, rich milk chocolate filling. Place 1/2 cup milk chocolate chips in a Ziploc bag, and seal shut.

Chocolate Chip Lava Cookies 

Lay the Ziploc bag flat in the microwave, spreading out the chocolate chips in a single layer. Microwave for 30 seconds. Remove bag and flip, microwaving for an additional 10-15 seconds until all the chips are softened.

Chocolate Chip Lava Cookies 

Cut a small tip off the Ziploc bag and layer over the cookies. If you have any leftover chocolate, save it — I’ll show you what to do with it in a minute.

Chocolate Chip Lava Cookies 

Heaven help me.

Chocolate Chip Lava Cookies 

Scoop and flatten the remaining dough, and place on top of your lava cookies.

Chocolate Chip Lava Cookies 

If you’ve got enough dough leftover, you can make one more cookie… or eat it as is! Your choice! :)

Chocolate Chip Lava Cookies 

Bake these in a 350 degree F oven for 15-20 minutes, until the edges are just browned. As soon as they come out of the oven, you may want to run a knife around the edges to make for easy removing later. Cool completely before removing from the tin, running a knife around the edge to help loosen.

Chocolate Chip Lava Cookies 

Now here’s how I like my cookies. Cooled, soft, and so perfectly chewy. I could eat about a million and a half of these.

Chocolate Chip Lava Cookies 

But here’s how Kevin likes his cookies.

Chocolate Chip Lava Cookies 

Warmed in the microwave for 10 seconds, topped with vanilla ice cream, and drizzled with chocolate sauce. You can use any leftover melted chocolate here!

Chocolate Chip Lava Cookies 

Mama mia.

Chocolate Chip Lava Cookies 

Chocolate Chip Lava Cookies
1/2 cup (1 stick) butter, softened
1/2 cup light brown sugar, packed
1/2 cup granulated sugar
1 large egg
1/2 tablespoon vanilla extract
1 3/4 cups (210 grams) all purpose flour
1/2 teaspoon salt
1/2 teaspoon baking soda
1 (11.5 oz) bag milk chocolate chips (I prefer Hersheys)

1. Preheat oven to 350 degrees F. Spray a standard size muffin tin with cooking spray. Place 1/2 cup chocolate chips in a Ziploc bag, and seal shut. Lay the Ziploc bag flat in the microwave, spreading out the chocolate chips in a single layer. Microwave for 30 seconds. Remove bag and flip, microwaving for an additional 10-15 seconds until all the chips are softened. Set aside to cool.

2. With an electric mixer, cream the butter and sugars until light and fluffy, about 3-5 minutes. Add egg and vanilla and beat until well combined. Meanwhile, in a separate bowl, whisk together the flour, salt, and baking soda. Add to the wet ingredients and beat on low speed until just combined. Add the remaining chocolate chips (1 cup) and stir to combine.

3. Using half the cookie dough, scoop 1.5-2 tbsp of dough, flatten it out a bit, and place in the bottom of the muffin tin. Repeat for a total of 10 cookies. Cut a small tip in the corner of the Ziploc bag, and gently squeeze a layer of chocolate over the cookie. Scoop and flatten the remaining dough and place on top of the chocolate layer. Bake at 350 for 15-20 minutes, until the edges are just browned. As soon as they come out of the oven, run a knife around the edges to make for easy removing later. Cool completely before removing from the muffin tin, running a knife around the edge to help loosen.
These are good as mini muffins, too! Try baking at 350 for 9 mins. Enjoy

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Friday, February 24, 2012

Appointment today with doctor...

I had an appointment today with a rheumatologist. He was a nice guy and very thorough. I was referred to him for help in finding the cause of my bone marrow edema.

I was diagnosed with rheumatoid arthritis today....

I was bummed. 

I am having issues with my right hand. My pinky is heading off in another direction lol and the other fingers are more knobby. My wrist hurts there, too. I have been having trouble with doing the dishes for quite some time often dropping and breaking things. (We are moving to more plastic lol)  My knee is getting better, but does not bend properly and my never. But, the painful flare is dissipating. 

He started me on a medicine called sulfasalazine, which is a medicine for inflammation, but not a pain medicine. So not an NSAID. I hope it helps. I know there is no cure for this and like my MG, we need to slow down the progression/flares. 

I am still going to do the things I love like gardening and sewing until I just can't any longer. It may take me longer to complete tasks, but I am not going to stop doing them. I can't.  Now, granted with the Myasthenia, I will be resting often with no choice as it is still progressing.  I am hoping to start a very beginner yoga class in April as long as my body will let me. I missed the start of the last class because of the bone marrow edema. 

Honestly, I just want to enjoy life. I just have to do that now with Myasthenia Gravis, Rheumatoid Arthrits, and Fibromyalgia.  It can and will be done. :)

God is faithful....

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Cinnamon chicken...delicous!

This chicken seemed so simple, yet it was so flavorful! I recommend you give it a try. :)
Cinnamon Chicken
  • 1 3lbs chicken, cut into 8 pieces (breasts, drumsticks, thighs and wings);
  • ½ tsp sea salt;
  • ½ tsp black pepper;
  • 2/3 tsp cinnamon;
  • 2 cloves garlic, minced;
  • ½ tsp paprika;
  • 1 onion, sliced;
  • 1 cup water or chicken stock
  1. Preheat your oven to 400 F.
  2. In a small bowl, combine the salt, pepper, garlic and cinnamon. Rub the chicken pieces with this mixture and allow it to sit for about 30 minutes at room temperature.
  3. Place the chicken pieces in a large roasting pan, sprinkle the meat all over with the paprika and add the onion slices to the pan.

  1. Cook for 35 minutes and then reduce the heat to 350 F. 
  2. Stir in a cup of water to the roasting pan and continue cooking for another 50 minutes.
  3. Serve and use the juices from the pan as a sauce.
I got the recipe for the Cinnamon Chicken here. 

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Wednesday, February 22, 2012

Off to the orthopedic surgeon...

 I absolutely LOVE this verse. It really hits home for me. I can be so weak with my Myasthenia Gravis that I don't have any strength to fight. It is so comforting knowing He fights for me!  I just need only to be still...something I have had no choice in lately, but it has given me the opportunity to let Him fight for me. :) 

I am off to the orthopedic surgeon today to speak to him about my bone marrow edema. He may need to do surgery to see why I keep getting it. I have had it 4 times in the last 5 yrs and 2 times in the last 6 mos. The swelling has gone down tremendously and I am experience almost no pain with it right now! Whew!  I still cannot bend my knee fully though. I hope he can find some answers. My family doc wanted him to do some biopsies of the bone marrow. If the edema is gone then I'm not sure if he will do it. I just have to wait and see what he wants to do. Who knows, I may end up seeing yet another doc in this journey. lol...

I hope you all can find encouragement if the above verse. If there is anything you are struggling with, fighting, etc...find comfort in knowing He fights for you!  I will update this post when I find out what the doc wants to do. :)

*UPDATE*  The doctor said he did not want to do surgery on me unless it was a last resort as I am a unique patient. My husband and I had to chuckle at that one. :) He said he was afraid it would damage my knee more and it would most likely be permanent. He thought the best thing would be to do a full body bone scan.  They will inject me with radioisotopes and then scan my bones. The radioisotopes would go to any area that had a problem (knee, should, leg bone, etc). He would be looking for cancer and/or arthritis. He also wants me to see a rheumatologist.  He thinks I may have rheumatoid arthritis. He said my bone marrow edema is not from anything mechanical going wrong, but rather something physiological. Most likely immune based. So that's all I know for now. :) Appreciate the prayers in finding answers on the full body bone scan.  That test will be done next Tues afternoon. Results will follow later that week or the next.
Whatever it is, I know God will be by my side. He is there now and will be there forever.

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Tuesday, February 21, 2012

Grain free crackers-like wheat thins

This recipe comes from Caveman Food. You can see the original recipe here

Sometimes you just want something crunchy, or you want something to spread your favorite dip on rather than just eat it with a spoon. This is one of the banes of low carb/paleo existence. Luckily, it's dead easy to whip up some almond crackers to satisfy on both counts! You can enjoy them as is or use them as vehicles for other tasty food such as guacamole or pate. You could even make them into dessert by adding some cinnamon or pie spice to the dough and perhaps a touch of honey or maple syrup.


1 cup almond flour
1 egg white
1 pinch salt

(that's it!)

Preheat the oven to 325 degrees.

In a bowl, mix together the almond flour, egg white, and salt until it forms a paste.

Line a cookie sheet with parchment paper. Make sure you use parchment paper, because if you don't you'll end up chipping your crackers out of the pan. Place the dough in the middle and top with another piece of parchment paper. Using a rolling pin (or any other cylindrical instrument), roll out the dough as thin as you can get it. Try to make it take up the whole cookie sheet if you can. Super thin. I mean it!

Peel off the top layer of paper and score the dough with a knife into whatever size crackers you want. Bake in the 325 oven for 10 minutes and then check on the crackers. You are looking for them to color ever so slightly. A little color means crispy, but a lot of color means burned nut taste, which is no good. If the edges have started to color nicely, remove them to a plate and put the remaining crackers back in the oven. Keep doing this, checking every 5 minutes and removing the golden crackers, until finally they are all baked to perfection.

Cool completely and store in an airtight container.
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Monday, February 20, 2012

Paleo meatloaf

This was the best meatloaf I have ever made. My husband said that he would even consider this for his last meal lol. A must try!

Paleo meatloaf
  • 1 lb ground beef or venison
  • 1 lb mild italian sausage or pork
  • 1 ½ tsp sea salt;
  • 1 tsp ground black pepper;
  • 1 egg;
  • 1 medium onion, finely chopped;
  • 2 cups white button mushrooms, finely chopped;
  • 1 tsp chili pepper flakes;
  • 3 tsp fresh thyme, minced;
  • 1 tsp fresh oregano, minced;
  • 3 cloves garlic, minced;
  • ½ cup ketchup (can be homemade)
  • 1 tbsp honey, optional;
  • ½ tbsp Worcestershire sauce, optional;
  1. Preheat your oven to 350 F.
  2. In a medium sized skillet placed over a medium heat, melt butter, add the mushrooms and saute for 2 to 3 minutes, or until soft.
  3. In a large bowl, combine the meat, salt, pepper, egg, onion, mushrooms, chili pepper, thyme, oregano and garlic. Mix well, makng sure to break-up the meat. Add the cooked mushrooms as well. It’s very important that the mushrooms are evenly distributed to ensure the loaf bonds well.
  4. Lightly grease loaf pan with additional cooking fat and fill it with the meat mixture. Place in the oven and cook for approximately 15 minutes.
  5. Meanwhile, in a small bowl, combine ketchup, honey and Worcestershire sauce to make the sauce for the top of the meatloaf.
  6. After cooking for 15 minutes, gently spread the sauce on the top of the loaf.
  7. Continue cooking for another 40 minutes.

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Sunday, February 19, 2012

Believing before seeing...

"The land which I do give them, even the children of Israel" (Joshua 1:2).

God here speaks in the immediate present. It is not something He is going to do, but something He does do, this moment. So faith ever speaks. So God ever gives. So He is meeting you today, in the present moment. This is the test of faith. So long as you are waiting for a thing, hoping for it, looking for it, you are not believing. It may be hope, it may be earnest desire, but it is not faith; for "faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen." The command in regard to believing prayer is the present tense. "When ye pray, believe that ye receive the things that ye desire, and ye shall have them." Have we come to that moment? Have we met God in His everlasting NOW? --Joshua, by Simpson

True faith counts on God, and believes before it sees. Naturally, we want some evidence that our petition is granted before we believe; but when we walk by faith we need no other evidence than God's Word. He has spoken, and according to our faith it shall be done unto us. We shall see because we have believed, and this faith sustains us in the most trying places, when everything around us seems to contradict God's Word.

The Psalmist says, "I had fainted, unless I had believed to see the goodness of the Lord in the land of living" (Ps. 27:13). He did not see as yet the Lord's answer to his prayers, but he believed to see; and this kept him from fainting.

If we have the faith that believes to see, it will keep us from growing discouraged. We shall "laugh at impossibilities," we shall watch with delight to see how God is going to open up a path through the Red Sea when there is no human way out of our difficulty. It is just in such places of severe testing that our faith grows and strengthens.

Have you been waiting upon God, dear troubled one, during long nights and weary days, and have feared that you were forgotten? Nay, lift up your head, and begin to praise Him even now for the deliverance which is on its way to you.

~Streams in the Desert

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Saturday, February 18, 2012

Homemade Junior Mints!

These looked tasty. :) I thought some of you may be movie goers and would like to make your own Junior Mints. Or maybe just to have when watching a movie at home. ;)

Homemade Junior Mints
makes about 94 candies
3 ounces cream cheese, at room temperature
1/2 teaspoon mint extract
3 – 3 1/2 cups powdered sugar
8 ounces semi-sweet chocolate

Beat the cream cheese until smooth and creamy.  Beat in the mint extract.  Add in the powdered sugar, 1/2 cup at a time, until the mixture is stiff.  It may look crumbly, but you should be able to push it together with your hands.  Roll mixture into small balls and flatten slightly.
Melt the chocolate in a double boiler, or at 50% in the microwave.  Once melted and smooth, dip each mint center in the chocolate.  Once covered, place on a piece of waxed paper.  Once all the centers have been dipped, refrigerate until the chocolate has hardened.
Store in the refrigerator.

You can find the original posters recipe here

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Friday, February 17, 2012

Enter the facebook giveaway here!

We reached 1000 likes on the facebook page! So it's GIVEAWAY time! This is open to US residents only please. Entry time ends Sunday 2/19 at 8pm and a winner will be chosen then.

You have a chance to enter a total for FOUR entries each!

Here's how to enter...

One entry for liking the facebook page or telling me you already have
One entry for subscribing to the blog by email
One entry for a comment on what your favorite recipe is
One entry for sharing the facebook page 

Leave each response in a separate comment and each one will be counted. I will choose a winner using Random.org. I will need a first name and last initial so I can announce the winner. I will announce the winner on the Homemakers and Homesteaders page so be looking for that. If the winner doesn't respond after two days, another winner will be drawn. Good luck! :)

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Thursday, February 16, 2012

LOVED this idea!

For those of you who like to make your own breakfast sandwiches, I found an easy way to get your eggs done fast and have a perfectly circular shape....

Spray your muffin tin and crack an egg into each spot...

Perfect Eggs

Well that was easy.

Stick these in a 350 degree oven for about 15-20 minutes or until done.

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Wednesday, February 15, 2012

Hearts at Home conference


I am going to the above conference next month and I can't wait. :)  One of the speakers I am really looking forward to hearing is Michelle Dugger.  One of the things she will be speaking about is purposefully talking in a soft voice. No yelling, no raising her voice to her children, etc. I lack in that area. I am hoping to get some tips in the area of having a meek and quiet spirit. I tend to overreact to things at times and it comes out in frustration in my words. I want to know if she is naturally like this or did she have to train herself to speak with this soft voice. I am hoping it's trained. I am not naturally meek and quiet and seem to struggle with this so much. I hope I can learn this and do it.  Last night on their show, she said she "chooses" to speak with a soft voice. That gave me hope. Because if it is a choice and doesn't come naturally for everyone, I can make that choice. I just need some practical tips. :)

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Tuesday, February 14, 2012

Happy Valentine's Day

Today is bittersweet. One  year ago today, I lost a great father/daughter relationship. I miss that man tremendously. Even though it's been a year with no contact, for some reason it hasn't gotten easier. (well maybe a tiny bit) I hope he is doing well and his life is better/easier/more peaceful now. I think about him often and hope he knows some things never change.

Today also marks 18 years of my husband and I being together. 18 years ago, my husband presented me with a rose at my locker at school and asked me to be his girl. :) We have been together ever since. Together in sickness and health, good times and bad, richer or poorer. :) God has bound us together with His love. 

I hope you all have a great day today and hug and kiss someone you love. This life doesn't last forever...

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Monday, February 13, 2012

Valentine's Day Cake Pops

This post comes from Elana's Pantry
I hope you enjoy these! :)

valentines day white chocolate cake pops gluten-free recipe
All of you regular readers know that I have an obsession with making healthy (ok, "healthier") gluten free cake pops.  Well, this obsession continues for Valentine's Day.

I spent an afternoon in my kitchen last week in total chocolate chaos.  I even tweeted about it (if you're not involved in the party that's over on twitter you may want to join, I'm there several times daily, tweeting away).  On twitter I stated, or shall I say, tweeted,  "my kitchen is covered in chocolate and I can't say why."

Well, now I'm saying why.  My kitchen was covered in chocolate because I was making gluten free Valentine's Day cake pops two ways.  First, pictured above, they are coated in white chocolate.  Next, below, the cake pops are coated in dark chocolate.  While they have very different flavor profiles, they're equally tasty and decadent in their own ways.  Of course, the dark chocolate covered cake pops are far healthier, so if that's a consideration, I would recommend going with them.

For these cake pops, I've omitted the jam or frosting on the inside, in order to create a more simply flavored confection.  The cake I use below is moist enough to hold together without any jam or frosting to "bind" it, so frankly it's not necessary for construction, it would just add another yummy flavor.
I hope you enjoy these Valentine's cake pops as much as we do, they are a huge hit in my household, and I feel happy just looking at them (though trust me, I ate my share as well!)

valentines day dark chocolate cake pops gluten-free recipe

Valentine's Day Cake Popsprinter friendly
  1. Bake Chocolate Cake as directed on page 84 of The Gluten Free Almond Flour Cookbook
  2. Cool cake completely
  3. Once cooled, crumble cake into a big bowl, making sure there are no large pieces
  4. Cake mixture will be very moist, no need to add frosting or jam
  5. Massage cake mixture with hands
  6. Press mixture into heart shaped mold, then remove immediately and transfer to a parchment lined plate
  7. Place plate of hearts in freezer for 1-2 hours until very solid
  8. Remove one heart at a time from freezer
  9. Dip about ½ inch of the tip of a lollipop stick into melted chocolate
  10. Insert the lollipop stick straight into the bottom of the heart, pushing about ⅓ of an inch deep
  11. Holding stick with heart attached, dip entirely into melted chocolate, until covered
  12. Make sure chocolate coating meets at base of lollipop stick; this helps secure heart to stick
  13. Twirl any excess chocolate coating off the cake pop so it is evenly coated
  14. Apply sprinkles (if desired)
  15. Place stick of cake pop into styrofoam block
  16. Complete with remaining hearts and allow to set completely
  17. Serve your gluten free Valentine's Day Cake Pops!
(You can store these gluten free cake pops in an airtight container in the refrigerator for up to 2 days)
Makes about 22 Gluten Free Valentine's Day Cake Pops

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Sunday, February 12, 2012


I just had to update with a praise! I was started on a new medicine after visiting the pain center.  It's called Lyrica and it's a medicine for nerve pain.  It's actually an anti-convulsive medicine, but is used to treat certain types of pain.  It's working! I have slept well the last two nights and have waken up with a significant amount of less pain. I will take less pain, amen? :) On top of that, I haven't had any side effects yet. AND, I haven't had to take a strong pain pill the last two days. I am so hopeful.  

My bone marrow edema is still there, but the swelling has started to go down. It is less painful and I'm SO glad for that. Bone pain is the worst!

So glad to finally be getting my pain under control after 11 years of suffering with it every day. So joyful right now. :)

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Friday, February 10, 2012

Strong composure...

 "Dearly beloved, avenge not yourselves" (Rom. 12:19).

There are seasons when to be still demands immeasurably higher strength than to act. Composure is often the highest result of power. To the vilest and most deadly charges Jesus responded with deep, unbroken silence, such as excited the wonder of the judge and the spectators. To the grossest insults, the most violent ill-treatment and mockery that might well bring indignation into the feeblest heart, He responded with voiceless complacent calmness. Those who are unjustly accused, and causelessly ill-treated know what tremendous strength is necessary to keep silence to God.

"Men may misjudge thy aim,
Think they have cause to blame,
Say, thou art wrong;
Keep on thy quiet way,
Christ is the Judge, not they,
Fear not, be strong."

St. Paul said, "None of these things move me."

He did not say, none of these things hurt me. It is one thing to be hurt, and quite another to be moved. St. Paul had a very tender heart. We do not read of any apostle who cried as St. Paul did. It takes a strong man to cry. Jesus wept, and He was the manliest Man that ever lived. So it does not say, none of these things hurt me. But the apostle had determined not to move from what he believed was right. He did not count as we are apt to count; he did not care for ease; he did not care for this mortal life. He cared for only one thing, and that was to be loyal to Christ, to have His smile. To St. Paul, more than to any other man, His work was wages, His smile was Heaven.
--Margaret Bottome

 From Streams in the Desert

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Wednesday, February 8, 2012

Pain center appt

Yesterday was a very bad day for me. If I had any strength I would have been climbing the walls. The pain I had was so horrible that I couldn't even walk a few steps. My bone marrow edema is hurting badly, but the rest of me was in just the same amount of pain. I also had a migraine (still do) on top of that. I cried on the couch squirming around in pain. The vicodin the doctor prescribed had given me migraines and so I had not taken any pain medicine all day. So I called for something different.

My doctor called back and ordered me Tramadol. My husband went to the pharmacy to get it for me and I took one when he got home. An hour later, I had some relief. It had taken the edge off the pain and I was able to deal with it better. I don't like how it makes me feel though. I feel woozy and out of it.

Then the Pain Center called out of nowhere. I had already had an appt for the 24 of this month to go talk to them about my pain. They called and said they had an opening for tomorrow afternoon and would I like it. YES! :) So I go in this afternoon to talk to them about options. I hope we can come up with a plan for this chronic pain. It's for the birds...

*UPDATE* The doctor said he would never be able to cure my pain or fix it completely, but will be able to help make it to where it's bearable. I appreciated his honesty.  I start a new medicine tonight and I am hoping that helps enough to where I don't have to take strong pain medicine anymore. That stuff makes me loopy lol. Next appt will be for my bone marrow edema to see why it happens and why it comes back. I have to wait a couple more weeks for that. In the meantime, I am trying to stay off it and tootle around in my wheelchair at home. :)
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Tuesday, February 7, 2012

Trust amid silence...

"He answered her not a word" (Matt. 15:23).

"He will be silent in his love" (Zeph. 3:17).

It may be a child of God is reading these words who has had some great crushing sorrow, some bitter disappointment, some heart-breaking blow from a totally unexpected quarter. You are longing for your Master's voice bidding you "Be of good cheer," but only silence and a sense of mystery and misery meet you --"He answered her not a word."

God's tender heart must often ache listening to all the sad, complaining cries which arise from our weak, impatient hearts, because we do not see that for our own sakes He answers not at all or otherwise than seems best to our tear-blinded, short-sighted eyes.

The silences of Jesus are as eloquent as His speech and may be a sign, not of His disapproval, but of His approval and of a deep purpose of blessing for you.

"Why art thou cast down, O?soul?" Thou shalt yet praise Him, yes, even for His silence. Listen to an old and beautiful story of how one Christian dreamed that she saw three others at prayer. As they knelt the Master drew near to them.

As He approached the first of the three, He bent over her in tenderness and grace, with smiles full of radiant love and spoke to her in accents of purest, sweetest music.

Leaving her, He came to the next, but only placed His hand upon her bowed bead, and gave her one look of loving approval.

The third woman He passed almost abruptly without stopping for a word or glance. The woman in her dream said to herself, "How greatly He must love the first one, to the second He gave His approval, but none of the special demonstrations of love He gave the first; and the third must have grieved Him deeply, for He gave her no word at all and not even a passing look.

"I wonder what she has done, and why He made so much difference between them?" As she tried to account for the action of her Lord, He Himself stood by her and said: "O woman! how wrongly hast thou interpreted Me. The first kneeling woman needs all the weight of My tenderness and care to keep her feet in My narrow way. She needs My love, thought and help every moment of the day. Without it she would fail and fall.

"The second has stronger faith and deeper love, and I can trust her to trust Me however things may go and whatever people do.

"The third, whom I seemed not to notice, and even to neglect, has faith and love of the finest quality, and her I am training by quick and drastic processes for the highest and holiest service.

"She knows Me so intimately, and trusts Me so utterly, that she is independent of words or looks or any outward intimation of My approval. She is not dismayed nor discouraged by any circumstances through which I arrange that she shall pass; she trusts Me when sense and reason and every finer instinct of the natural heart would rebel;--because she knows that I am working in her for eternity, and that what I do, though she knows not the explanation now, she will understand hereafter.

"I am silent in My love because I love beyond the power of words to express, or of human hearts to understand, and also for your sakes that you may learn to love and trust Me in Spirit-taught, spontaneous response to My love, without the spur of anything outward to call it forth."

He "will do marvels" if you will learn the mystery of His silence, and praise Him, for every time He withdraws His gifts that you may better know and love the Giver.

This comes from the devotional Streams in the Desert

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Sunday, February 5, 2012

God still speaks...My purpose

I wanted to share this with you. I have been struggling a lot with physical things, but wanted you to know that I am well spiritually. God still speaks and He is so faithful. 

I have seeking God in what I can do for Him with being so weak and frail. On Monday, He answered my prayer. He said clearly to me that my purpose is to be a prayer warrior for Him. He told me in my spirit that even though I am weak and having difficulty right now, I can PRAY. I said, but my mind is so tired, too, how can I know what words to say? He said, PRAY, interceded for others, and the Holy Spirit will do the rest. Wow....
I opened up the bible and immediately saw every word that said "pray" jump off all the pages I was flipping through. I started underlining them all. There were so many. I then started getting emails within minutes requesting prayers for one thing or another. Mind you no one knew what God was doing with me at the time. Whoa...

Ryan was at the grocery store at the time of this. It's funny because it was just an ordinary day, nothing special, but God told me His purpose for me that day and I heard it LOUD AND CLEAR.
I was so excited about what had happened to me while Ryan was at the store that I couldn't wait to tell him about it. He was happy, too. Also, when God laid being a prayer warrior on my heart, he laid SEVERAL people on me real fast like so fast I had to write it all down.

As you know, Ryan and I have a huge heart for missions, also. He just got back from the Dominican and was blessed by the trip. He is wanting to do this more such as go somewhere for 2-3 mos in the winter. I wouldn't be able to go due to my health right now, but we now understand that I may be the one who is in constant prayer while he/they are gone on the field. 

He wakes me up while it's still dark with specific people and situations to pray for. How humbling! In my grogginess of the dark, I pray fervently for whomever it is He has called me to pray for. My spirit soars knowing I am being obedient to His will.  The one He has so clearly called me to.

(I wanted to say that I know we are ALL called to pray. For me, this was something deeper He has called me to. A purpose He chose for me to do before the creation of the world. I am now ready to fulfill that and will continue to be groomed by Him by being in the Word and keeping my relationship with Him close)

I hope you all have a great day of worship. :)

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Friday, February 3, 2012

Update to an update

Heading back to the doctor today. The bone morrow edema is not better, in fact it's worse. It hurts so much that with each step I feel I may "toss my cookies". :(  The pain medicine is giving me terrible stomach pain and the steroids did nothing this time. Darn.  I will update this post when I get home later. Prayers appreciated.

*Just returned from the doctor about the recurring bone marrow edema. I have an appointment with an orthopedic surgeon in a few weeks to discuss exploritory surgery to try and find the reason for the bone marrow edema since there is no injury or tear. Just happens spontaneously. Until then I have to be on crutches and take vicodin for the excruciating pain that comes with bones swelling. I appreciate your thoughts and prayers.

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Wednesday, February 1, 2012

5 ways to encourage young homemakers

Although I don't have a daughter, I wanted to share this article with you from Roo Mag.com. It's got some great tips. :)

I strive to make homemaking enjoyable for my daughter—and she loves it! In fact last Saturday when I picked up the vegetables for beef stew, she said, “I call dibs on the onions!” Then she followed up with, “I call dibs on the celery!”

Did I argue—uh… no! It’s really cute how she insists on cooking whenever she can, and looks at it like her God-given right to be in the kitchen. Not that I mind.

In addition to having fun in the kitchen, my husband and I have purchased tools for her so that she will have a sense of belonging when it comes to homemaking. We started doing this when she was about 11. At twelve years old she got her own food processor. Even buying small things like her own potato peeler or recipe book has been a way of encouraging her in this field. The same holds true for other areas of the home, like laundry for example. If a young girl has her own shelf in the laundry room it gives her a sense of belonging and a desire to work there.
Because she loves being in the kitchen so much, she will often ask if she can make dinner. If she does, I don’t complain about her choices or meddle in her work. There have been some days where she makes us nachos and bean dip, and we happily accept it as if we were guests in her home. The other night she made broccoli cheese soup for dinner and spinach dip for dessert. Although I don’t think she’s fully grasped the concept, I have to say, that’s my kind of dessert!

A few months ago she offered to make mashed potatoes for supper. That was it—mashed potatoes. I happily accepted her offer, and then when she was busy at her work I went into the kitchen and offered to contribute to her meal. She loved that idea. So I threw some sausages in the oven and warmed up some vegetables.

With this in mind, I’d like to offer five tips for encouraging young homemakers:
  1. Don’t expect perfection. Young homemakers won’t be perfect, so don’t expect or demand it. Does it really matter if the spaghetti sauce is too thick or if the hem on a skirt is a bit crooked? Beauty is in the eye of the beholder so try to see things through her eyes.
  2. Give them a sense of ownership. Any small things that you can do like giving your daughter her own apron, a set of oven mitts, or a feather duster offers her a sense of ownership. Perhaps you could make a set of matching mother/daughter aprons? I have links to 191 free patterns on my blog!
  3. Make housekeeping fun. My children fight to help me with dinner. I have purchased extra potato peelers since all of the kids want to help peel potatoes. The older ones like cutting vegetables and the boys love hammering steak or whisking a sauce. Dinner time has always been a fun time of preparation. I’ve always treated making dinner as my responsibility, and they are welcome to help.
  4. Offer inspiration. My daughter received a sewing machine for Christmas last year and shortly after we went for a tour of my sisters sewing room. Seeing the potential that one sewing machine has to create beauty, inspired Maddy to further pursue the craft. Inspiration comes in all forms. In fact my daughter was also inspired to organize her bedroom when she saw how well Grandma kept her closets in order.
  5. Teach principles that show them why we should care for the things that we have. God has created all things and everything that we have is a gift from Him. We take care of those things to show our appreciation of His gift. When people come to visit, what do they see? Do they see order and appreciation or a life that lacks moderation and self control? These are just some of the reasons we keep a good home.
Darlene Schacht

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