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Tuesday, January 31, 2012

Interesting thought...

"Many wives do not realize that they have two powerful weapons that are far more effective than nagging, whining, or preaching. The first weapon is a godly life. The second is prayer." unknown

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Sunday, January 29, 2012

A few updates

My husband returned safely from the Dominican Republic Thurs night. He had a very blessed time there. He brought back a little bug/bacteria/parasite? with him though. He is taking his medicine and should be just fine soon. He doesn't feel sick or anything, just inconvenient if you know what I mean. ;)

He had a woman there he had only met minutes earlier come up to him and hug him and not let him go for several minutes despite him trying to let go several minutes in. She finally released him and told him that he was going to do great things for God. He was taken aback to say the least.

As for me, I have bone marrow edema in my upper tibia/lower femur again. As you can imagine the swelling of bone marrow is very painful. I am to be off my leg and was given a short length of steroids to bring the pain and swelling down. Seems to be working :)  Also, my sleep study full report came back and it seems I wake up at least 11 times during the night. They had given me a pill to take to help keep my asleep and after a week of taking it....it doesn't work. :( So off to find another solution. There has to be something that will keep you asleep despite noises and not leave you a zombie in the morning. I also will be visiting the pain center after years of dealing with chronic pain. Hoping to have a pain free or even less pain life from now on. Wouldn't that be the cat's meow!

Hunter has to have physical therapy next month for a hip/pelvis that went out of whack while unloading wood from the trailer. He has been visiting the widow up the road (she is 85) and really enjoys her company. They are good for each other. :) She is very blessed by his visits. We started a new curriculum for him for homeschool and it is working out great. We really like it. :) Imagine finding something you like only after homeschooling for NINE years lol. I can't believe he will be in high school next year. Wow...

That's as much as my weak fingers will allow me to type right now. ;) I hope you all have a great day of worship. Let us rejoice and be GLAD. :)

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Saturday, January 28, 2012

My other blog for you grain free/gluten free folks. :)

I started another blog called The Grain Free Homestead focusing solely on being grain free/gluten free. I have been gluten free for a while now (yrs) but needed to go a bit farther for the healing of my intestines. So I have gone grain free. That means no rice, beans, oats, peanuts, corn, etc, but doesn't mean loss of good food. :) I have lots of recipes over there that have all been filed past my family with their taste of approval. Everything is natural and made from scratch. Go check it out!


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Thursday, January 26, 2012

This thing is from Me

Oh how I needed this reminder!
"....this thing is from me" (1 Kings 12:24).

"Life's disappointments are veiled love's appointments." --Rev. C. A. Fox

My child, I have a message for you today; let me whisper it in your ear, that it may gild with glory any storm clouds which may arise, and smooth the rough places upon which you may have to tread. It is short, only five words, but let them sink into your inmost soul; use them as a pillow upon which to rest your weary head. This thing is from Me.

Have you ever thought of it, that all that concerns you concerns Me too? For, "he that toucheth you, toucheth the apple of mine eye" (Zech. 2:8). You are very precious in My sight. (Isa. 43:4) Therefore, it is My special delight to educate you.

I would have you learn when temptations assail you, and the "enemy comes in like a flood," that this thing is from Me, that your weakness needs My might, and your safety lies in letting Me fight for you. (This is especially meaningful to me)

Are you in difficult circumstances, surrounded by people who do not understand you, who never consult your taste, who put you in the background? This thing is from Me. I am the God of circumstances. Thou camest not to thy place by accident, it is the very place God meant for thee.

Have you not asked to be made humble? See then, I have placed you in the very school where this lesson is taught; your surroundings and companions are only working out My will.

Are you in money difficulties? Is it hard to make both ends meet? This thing is from Me, for I am your purse-bearer and would have you draw from and depend upon Me. My supplies are limitless (Phil.4:19). I would have you prove my promises. Let it not be said of you, "In this thing ye did not believe the Lord your God" (Deut. 1:32).

Are you passing through a night of sorrow? This thing is from Me. I am the Man of Sorrows and acquainted with grief. I have let earthly comforters fail you, that by turning to Me you may obtain everlasting consolation (2 Thess. 2:16, 17). Have you longed to do some great work for Me and instead have been laid aside on a bed of pain and weakness? This thing is from Me. I could not get your attention in your busy days and I want to teach you some of my deepest lessons. "They also serve who only stand and wait." Some of My greatest workers are those shut out from active service, that they may learn to wield the weapon of all--prayer.

This day I place in your hand this pot of holy oil. Make use of it free, my child. Let every circumstance that arises, every word that pains you, every interruption that would make you impatient, every revelation of your weakness be anointed with it. The sting will go as you learn to see Me in all things. (And this, too)
~From Streams in the Desert

This post may be up for a while as I ponder this and really let it soak in. God knows what I needed to hear.

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Wednesday, January 25, 2012

Why I mostly wear skirts...

I want to start by saying I am not against wearing pants. I wear jeans at times. When I do, it's usually with a nice feminine top. But, this post is simply about why I mostly wear skirts. 

You can see in the above picture that my left leg is stretched out. That's because I can't bend it. My knee is very swollen again (common occurrence due to atrophy of my leg) and I have to wear a leg brace.  Wearing a leg brace under jeans is very uncomfortable. I feel more free to move around in a skirt. Wearing a skirt isn't just about modesty, although that is a great thing. Sometimes, it's just more practical like in this case. But, that being said, I also like to wear skirts to be reminded that I am a lady and that helps me with keeping a soft and gentle spirit. I like to be feminine and wear feminine clothes. So even when I am able to wear jeans, I always pair it with a pretty feminine top. That's it. :) That's why I like to mostly wear skirts. I am not legalistic in dress, just modest, feminine, and comfortable. :)

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Tuesday, January 24, 2012

Can anyone relate?

Can you say exhausted? I have been so weak lately that every homemaking task is daunting. I am losing more muscle again in my left leg which has caused knee effusion and bone marrow inflammation again. I am down to 109 lbs. (not for trying! I eat, but sometimes only can eat a little due to swallowing problems) I am finally going to go to the doctor to see about the pain clinic. I think the constant pain is causing my MG to become even more exacerbated.
Here's what I want back...
Maybe someday, Lord willing.

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Monday, January 23, 2012

Refreshing dew...

Dew will never gather while there is either heat or wind. The temperature must fall, and the wind cease, and the air come to a point of coolness and rest--absolute rest, so to speak--before it can yield up its invisible particles of moisture to bedew either herb or flower. So the grace of God does not come forth to rest the soul of man until the still point is fairly and fully reached.
~Streams in the Desert

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Sunday, January 22, 2012

Sausage makin' time!

Our family makes sausage from the deer we get. It is so good! We make breakfast sausage, brats, italian sausage, and meat sticks. :) We did this over Christmas break.

 Hunter and Ryan cutting up the pork to be ground with the venison

 The  beast lol

 Meat sticks


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Friday, January 20, 2012

Sleep study results...

Went to the doc today.  The results of the sleep study were back and the good news is that I did not have any desaturation (low oxygen saturation) or episodes of not breathing. The bad news is that it showed I am not getting recuperative sleep. I did not go into REM much and had short sleep latency. That explains why I am in more pain lately and feeling horrible upon wakening like I haven't been to bed. She prescribed me a medicine that should help me sleep more deeply. I sure hope it works. I need sleep! :)

I also had to get a neck brace/support as my MG has affected my neck muscles more and my head wants to tilt back too much. That results in very sore and tired neck muscles that need a break and so the neck support was obtained. It helps. 

My husband left yesterday for the Dominican and wouldn't ya know the toilet is acting up today. It won't flush right.  The water comes up and then goes down real slow. I plunged the heck out of it as much as I could. That didn't do anything. It wasn't even plugged so I don't know what's wrong with it. I wish I knew more about toilets as my husband won't be back for a week...sigh. 

It's been a long day with doc appt, crazy toilet, MG issues, doing the best I can to get wood to the house wood myself (my son hurt his back), so I think I am going to go prop myself up on the couch and zone out. Here's hoping for sleep and a better tomorrow...

*UPDATE: Our toilet got fixed last night! :)

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Wednesday, January 18, 2012

Being a godly wife...

My husband is leaving for the Dominican Republic on Thurs morning.  I'm going to miss him. It will be lonely and life will be more difficult here without his loving leadership, but we will get by until he returns a week later. :) My son is a great young man and likes to be the head when his dad is gone. Good practice. ;) 

My husband and I were watching a show the other night called Alaska: The Last Frontier. It was about a few different families homesteading up there. There was one couple in particular that he connected with. They were high school sweethearts (like us and about our age) and loved living off the land. As we were watching, he pointed out something she (the wife in the show) had said about her husband. The wife was talking highly of her husband about how resourceful he was and and how he could do anything. That there was nothing he couldn't do. My husband turned and looked at me and said, I thought you'd like how she spoke of her husband. I smiled and said I sure do. :)

It got me thinking...(uh oh)

Do I do that? Do I speak about my husband in such a way? Sadly, if I were honest, I'd have to say no. :( I could be so much more encouraging and supportive. I often see the negative things he does (or doesn't do) and that tends to cloud my judgement of him at times. I have made a commitment to God to change that. I mean it. I struggle with a pride issue and it has tainted some of my thoughts. I have a lot of maturing to do and I think I'm finally ready to be a woman.  Not just a silly little girl who doesn't put much thought into things, says silly things, doesn't take things seriously, and is often in her own little world. I'm 36 yrs old after all. I think it's time to really commit my life to lifting up my husband, encouraging him, focusing more on him, and being the best helpmeet God has created me to be no matter what. No matter if he upsets me, makes a wrong parenting decision, fails at something he has tried, etc. I'm ready!

He hasn't said anything about me not keeping up on such things, but I saw how that woman saying those things about her husband affected his eyes (they were soft and loving) and I know deep down he desires me to do more of that. So with God's help, I will improve on what my heart desires...

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Monday, January 16, 2012

The breaking of the storm...

This comes from the devotional I read...Streams in the Desert

"And there arose a great storm" (Mark 4:37).

Some of the storms of life come suddenly: a great sorrow, a bitter disappointment, a crushing defeat. Some come slowly. They appear upon the ragged edges of the horizon no larger than a man's hand, but, trouble that seems so insignificant spreads until it covers the sky and overwhelms us.

Yet it is in the storm that God equips us for service. When God wants an oak He plants it on the moor where the storms will shake it and the rains will beat down upon it, and it is in the midnight battle with elements that the oak wins its rugged fibre and becomes the king of the forest.

When God wants to make a man He puts him into some storm. The history of manhood is always rough and rugged. No man is made until he has been out into the surge of the storm and found the sublime fulfillment of the prayer: "O God, take me, break me, make me."

A Frenchman has painted a picture of universal genius. There stand orators, philosophers and martyrs, all who have achieved pre-eminence in any phase of life; the remarkable fact about the picture is this: Every man who is pre-eminent for his ability was first pre-eminent for suffering. In the foreground stands that figure of the man who was denied the promised land, Moses. Beside him is another, feeling his way--blind Homer. Milton is there, blind and heart-broken. Now comes the form of one who towers above them all. What is His characteristic? His Face is marred more than any man's. The artist might have written under that great picture, "The Storm."

The beauties of nature come after the storm. The rugged beauty of the mountain is born in a storm, and the heroes of life are the storm-swept and the battle-scarred.

You have been in the storms and swept by the blasts. Have they left you broken, weary, beaten in the valley, or have they lifted you to the sunlit summits of a richer, deeper, more abiding manhood and womanhood? Have they left you with more sympathy with the storm-swept and the battle-scarred? --Selected

The wind that blows can never kill
The tree God plants;
It bloweth east, it bloweth west,
The tender leaves have little rest,
But any wind that blows is best.
The tree that God plants
Strikes deeper root, grows higher still,
Spreads greater boughs, for God's good will
Meets all its wants.

There is no storm hath power to blast
The tree God knows;
No thunderbolt, nor beating rain,
Nor lightning flash, nor hurricane;
When they are spent, it doth remain,
The tree God knows,
Through every tempest standeth fast,
And from its first day to its last
Still fairer grows.

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Sunday, January 15, 2012

I'm back with a video...

I took some time off of blogging and now I feel a little more rested and ready to get back at it.  I got my homeschooling curriculum ordered and it should be here Tuesday. The family made sausage together. Ryan got another deer and I was too tired for butchering so we had it butchered. I sadly gave my chickens new homes the other day. I cleaned the coop recently and I am just too weak to continue that. Plus my husband was ready to be done with them.  Maybe I will be strong enough this spring to just put all my focus solely on gardening. (I hope so)

I wanted to post this video from a fellow MG'er. Her disease is more severe than mine is, but it gives you a good idea of some of what we go through.  It's about 9 min long, but I encourage you to watch.

I just want to say that I am thankful that God has allowed me to continue to serve Him in whatever capacity I can. Serving in Venezuela even while having this disease was hard on me, but I am so thankful God allowed me that experience. I am thankful for the days when I am not in too much pain in the middle of the day (morning and night are different) I LOVE the days when I can breathe and not get winded just walking across the house. (You will understand this more after you watch the video)

We all can be used no matter what our circumstances are. I have learned compassion through pain, patience through frustration, and surrender through brokenness. God is good. (Be sure to turn off music at the bottom of my blog before viewing video)

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Saturday, January 14, 2012

Put Forth...

I'm baaaack! I hope you enjoy this post from Streams in the Desert. I sure did.

"He putteth forth his own sheep" (John10:4).

Oh, this is bitter work for Him and us--bitter for us to go, but equally bitter for Him to cause us pain; yet it must be done. It would not be conducive to our true welfare to stay always in one happy and comfortable lot. He therefore puts us forth. The fold is deserted, that the sheep may wander over the bracing mountain slope. The laborers must be thrust out into the harvest, else the golden grain would spoil.

Take heart! it could not be better to stay when He determines otherwise; and if the loving hand of our Lord puts us forth, it must be well. On, in His name, to green pastures and still waters and mountain heights! He goeth before thee. Whatever awaits us is encountered first by Him. Faith's eye can always discern His majestic presence in front; and when that cannot be seen, it is dangerous to move forward. Bind this comfort to your heart, that the Savior has tried for Himself all the experiences through which He asks you to pass; and He would not ask you to pass through them unless He was sure that they were not too difficult for your feet, or too trying for your strength.

This is the Blessed Life--not anxious to see far in front, nor careful about the next step, not eager to choose the path, nor weighted with the heavy responsibilities of the future, but quietly following behind the Shepherd, one step at a time.

Dark is the sky! and veiled the unknown morrowl
Dark is life's way, for night is not yet o'er;
The longed-for glimpse I may not meanwhile borrow;
But, this I know, HE GOETH ON BEFORE.

Dangers are nigh! and fears my mind are shaking;
Heart seems to dread what life may hold in store;
But I am His--He knows the way I'm taking,
More blessed still--HE GOETH ON BEFORE.

Doubts cast their weird, unwelcome shadows o'er me,
Doubts that life's best--life's choicest things are o'er;
What but His Word can strengthen, can restore me,
And this blest fact; that still HE GOES BEFORE.

HE GOES BEFORE! Be this my consolation!
He goes before! On this my heart would dwell!
He goes before! This guarantees salvation!
HE GOES BEFORE! And therefore all is well.
--J. D. Smith

The Oriental shepherd was always ahead of his sheep. He was down in front. Any attack upon them had to take him into account. Now God is down in front. He is in the tomorrows. It is tomorrow that fills men with dread. God is there already. All the tomorrows of our life have to pass Him before they can get to us. --F. B. M.

"God is in every tomorrow,
Therefore I live for today,
Certain of finding at sunrise,
Guidance and strength for the way;
Power for each moment of weakness,
Hope for each moment of pain,
Comfort for every sorrow,
Sunshine and joy after rain."

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Wednesday, January 4, 2012

Taking a blogging break...

I haven't been feeling the best. I am struggling everyday and I'm very tired. Exhausted so much I can barely do my duties.  I want to "unplug" from things and try and regain some focus and rest. I will be focusing on our son's schooling as we are changing up our schedule to homeschool year 'round. I want to focus on our homestead life and I need to focus my efforts on getting physically and mentally rested to do that. 

I go in for a sleep study on the 15th and praying that they can help me get some more oxygen in my system if needed. Feeling oxygen deprived because your diaphragm is too tired to work properly doesn't feel very good. Frankly, it feels awful. This disease is awful. But, our God is good! I will be focusing more on Him also while I'm away from the blogging world. I may be gone a couple weeks sorting things out...

Thanks for understanding and I hope to see you soon.

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Tuesday, January 3, 2012

Gentle leading...

"I will lead on softly, according as the cattle that goeth before me and the children be able to endure" (Gen. 33:14).

What a beautiful picture of Jacob's thoughtfulness for the cattle and the children! He would not allow them to be overdriven even for one day. He would not lead on according to what a strong man like Esau could do and expected them to do, but only according to what they were able to endure. He knew exactly how far they could go in a day; and he made that his only consideration in arranging the marches. He had gone the same wilderness journey years before, and knew all about its roughness and heat and length, by personal experience. And so he said, "I will lead on softly." "For ye have not passed this way heretofore" (Josh.3:4.).

We have not passed this way heretofore, but the Lord Jesus has. It is all untrodden and unknown ground to us, but He knows it all by personal experience. The steep bits that take away our breath, the stony bits that make our feet ache so, the hot shadeless stretches that make us feel so exhausted, the rushing rivers that we have to pass through--Jesus has gone through it all before us. "He was wearied with his journey." Not some, but all the many waters went over Him, and yet did not quench His love. He was made a perfect Leader by the things which He suffered. "He knoweth our frame; he remembereth that we are dust." 

Think of that when you are tempted to question the gentleness of His leading. He is remembering all the time; and not one step will He make you take beyond what your foot is able to endure. Never mind if you think it will not be able for the step that seems to come next; either He will so strengthen it that it shall be able, or He will call a sudden halt, and you shall not have to take it at all. --Frances Ridley Havergal

In "pastures green"? Not always; sometimes He Who knowest best, in kindness leadeth me In weary ways, where heavy shadows be. So, whether on the hill-tops high and fair I dwell, or in the sunless valleys, where The shadows lie, what matter? He is there. ~Streams in the Desert

Monday, January 2, 2012

New Year...

"The land whither ye go to possess it is a land of hills and valleys and drinketh water of the rain of heaven: a land which the Lord thy God careth for: the eyes of the Lord are always upon it, from the beginning of the year even unto the end of the year" (Deut. 11:11-12).

Today dear friends, we stand upon the verge of the unknown. There lies before us the new year and we are going forth to possess it. Who can tell what we shall find? What new experiences, what changes shall come, what new needs shall arise? But here is the cheering, comforting, gladdening message from our Heavenly Father, "The Lord thy God careth for it." "His eyes are upon it away to the ending of the year."

All our supply is to come from the Lord. Here are springs that shall never dry; here are fountains and streams that shall never be cut off. Here, anxious one, is the gracious pledge of the Heavenly Father. If He be the Source of our mercies they can never fail us. No heat, no drought can parch that river, "the streams whereof make glad the city of God."

The land is a land of hills and valleys. It is not all smooth nor all down hill. If life were all one dead level the dull sameness would oppress us; we want the hills and the valleys. The hills collect the rain for a hundred fruitful valleys. Ah, so it is with us! It is the hill difficulty that drives us to the throne of grace and brings down the shower of blessing; the hills, the bleak hills of life that we wonder at and perhaps grumble at, bring down the showers. How many have perished in the wilderness, buried under its golden sands, who would have lived and thriven in the hill-country; how many would have been killed by the frost, blighted with winds, swept desolate of tree and fruit but for the hill-stern, hard, rugged, so steep to climb. God's hills are a gracious protection for His people against their foes!

We cannot tell what loss and sorrow and trial are doing. Trust only. The Father comes near to take our hand and lead us on our way today. It shall be a good, a blessed new year!

~Streams in the Desert 

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